takut

saya, saya tidak pernah merasa setakut ini

ketakutan yang tidak bisa digambarkan

kosong, sepi, gelap.

punya, tetapi tidak berguna

seperti terhentak dan tak bisa berjalan

tidak ada langkah, tidak ada jalan

dimana harapan itu?

dimana cahaya itu?



Tuhan, ulurkan tangan-Mu, raih aku, selamatkan aku,
dan hanya kepada Engkau, aku pasrahkan.

never been better

should i stay?

fifty-fifty, no. just thirty-seventy, now on.

should i leave?

if could, it will be.

should i cover it?

it just like yesterday.

never been better.

smile in the morning like theres no tears last night.

ballot.

no, isnt.

every single-day, every single-night, always.

choose. take a risk. should be.

hesitation

same.

situation. condition. feels.

neither continue nor stop. stuck.

either stay on or move. if could be.

feels like wanna end this game, but couldn't

hard, cry, cover-face, act,

found a better one, but hard to do.

comfort, fun, smile, laugh, real,



.......indecisive